I never knew that everything was falling through.

These past week and a half has been like hell for me. Everything has been falling apart. I don't have that special someone in my life in "that way" anymore and I realllly miss him, prom is falling apart, everything is just reallly messed up for me right now. Half of it is my fault, all my fault. I always find a way to mess things up for myself and hurt the people I care about, because I always THINK I can handle things, and that I can do things that I really cant, and it always backfires on me. I'm trying to be happy but I guess in  the wrong way. Its like when I fix one thing, something else falls apart. Like cause and effect..smh. Prom is going to be crazy because I was supposed to go with a group of my friends but now we are all split up, and theres gonna be sooo much drama at both proms. But the good side to prom is I get to spend time with that special someone, show him that hes still special to me. So I'm excited about that part. I'm just hoping things don't get worse with him, only better. But its gonna be hard for me because now all I can think about is how I betrayed his trust and how I hurt him and myself. I think I finally fixed things with my ex, so thats a good point in my life right now, but still sucks because I still have a bit of feelings for him. My life at home is very tense. I'm still so unhappy in so many ways. I guess I got part of what I wanted. I guess what they say is true, you cant have your cake and eat it too. Guys please keep me in your prayers...I know this post is very sporadic and all over the place, but I had to do it.

This song always gets me. Reminds me that everything will be okay in time and that God will handle it all, the way it supposed to be. No matter how much wrong I do, he'll always love me.

Wiz Khalifa: Kush and Orange Juice

So yesterday, Wiz Khalifa, Pittsburgh rapper, dropped his long awaited mixtape, Kush and Orange Juice yesterday. It was the most talked about topic on twitter all day, and its still trending. I was at school when it dropped, but as soon as I got out, I was on here trying to download it. I love it. The vibe is really chill. Like seriously while I was listening to it, I was like dang, I wish I smoked, because this is some good stuff to vibe and smoke too! LOL. But Wiz went in! I haven't stopped listening to it yet. If you dont have it, you should really go get it. All the songs are good and the skits are pretty funny. If you smoke, you probably couldn't and wouldn't be able to refrain from rolling one up while listening. Good job Wiz. If you go through my playlist, Ive got the whole tape on there, if you wanna listen to it before you download.

Drake Over Video/ Flight School Version of Over

I can say FINALLY DRAKE. You give us something that at least looks like you had some input in it. Personally I liked it. Could have been a bit more deep, but hey hes no Mr.West. Maybe I'm just biased though because I love him :). Anyways. Watch, I'm a couple days late posting. Lots of stuff going on...



Plus, 3 of my best friends did Its Finally Over over Drake's Over beat. Ryan Hollis (Yung Hollis), Jordan Glover( JG) and on the chorus with the lovely vocals, Chris Smith( Big C) :) Enjoy!

When it falls down who you gone call now?

This week has been horrible so far. I thought things were good. Its like once I get one thing right, another falls apart. Maybe I'm just trying to hard to please everybody but the God and  person the I should be trying please, the person I'm in a relationship with. I may have said somethings in the past, at the beginning, that I really do regret saying. It was all heat of the moment and I admitted I was wrong for everything I said. I shouldn't have judged you all in one day, over one incident. I wouldn't let anything or anybody come between you and me. Just know that I'm blessed to have somebody true like you in my life. You've changed so much for me, and I know it seems like I've done nothing for you. I'm looking to change that. People in a relationship should be able to talk about their issues and I know pride gets in the way but sometimes you have to let it go. It really hurts knowing that you're furious with me, and I'm not completely sure why. I know its hard for you to trust people, and you may feel like I've betrayed your trust already. I truly am SORRY.

Casio teams up with Play Cloths for G-Shock.

Casio joins forces with Play Cloths for this special edition G-Shock. I know Im like a week late on this news.

Just a Little Look at Me. :)

Love you guys :) Thanks for reading.

Movies

So these are some of the movies I really want - no have to see! Zoe Saldana is in two of the 3 movies! She is one of my favorite actresses. Shes gorgeous! Love her!

A Nightmare on Elm Street

Death at a Funeral

The Losers

I can't wait to go see these :)

Tattoos and Piercings :)

So its been about 4 days since I last posted. I finally found someone to fix my computer. It finally works now :) So Ill try to blog more, but I might be getting a job soon, not sure about that yet. But anyways, here in South Carolina they have FINALLY lowered the age that people are able to get tattoos without parental consent to 18 :D. Im sooo happy. As soon as I get to USC in Columbia Im finding the nearest place to get one! Im gonna be posting some tattoos and piercings Im thinking about getting. A lot of people tell me I shouldnt get all the piercings Im thinking about getting, because they will make me look ugly =/. What do you guys think?

  

The Rihanna tattoo is the word Love on her middle finger.  I want this one first. People say finger tattoos hurt but I dont care. I dont want it because she has it, I think its suppper cute. The Chinese symbol is the word Hope. I want this one behind my ear on the back of my neck. I also want a lower abdomen tattoo, but I don't want the cherry though. I want the words Just Have Some Faith in the same font that Love is written in. My middle name is Faith so thats why I want that one. What do you guys think? Too much? People who know me personally know that my dad is crazzzy overprotective, so its only predictable that I go wild once I get on my own.

 I want a bar in my cartilage,I think. I'm iffy about it. I think it might be too much. But if I do, I want it in my right ear and just a simple stud in my left. If I don't I'll just go simple on both :) I also want my noise pierced. Just a small one, like Tupac. But I don't know. Some people say I shouldn't. But the piercing  I'm getting for sure is my belly button! Thats all I want..I think. Too much? Let me know what you guys think I should and shouldn't do! Get at me in comment, Twitter or Facebook :) Sorry for blabbing about tattoos and piercings :) Just getting it out of the way...

2:29 Thoughts....Happy Easter.

Its getting pretty late and Im still up -_-. I have lots on my mind. There has been one particular thing that has been heavy on my mind for a loooong time now, like years. How do you tell if you are in lust with somebody or in love with somebody. I've only truly been in love once, and that was so long ago. I know you cant be in love with everrybooddy you come across, thats just dumb. Its always hard to tell because you are blinded by the amazing way that person makes you feel...Just a thought.

On a lighter note, ITS EASTER! I thank Jesus for everything he has done for me and everything hes going to do for me! You will always be a big part of my life. I cant give you enough praise.

NEW Jennifer Hudson: Named New Face of Weight Watchers

Okay So I was looking for stuff to blog about, and I am came across this article about Jennifer Husdon and how she has lost a whole bunch of weight. I was shocked when I saw the pictures! She looks really good! After she gave birth to her son, she got on Weight Watchers and made a plan to lose the pounds! Im a fan of her music. She has an incredible voice! She looks stunning, you go girl! She is an inspiration to all women who would like to lose weight to look and feel their best. You're a beautiful person, no matter what you weigh!